March 20 was the fourth anniversary of Addie's passing to a better place. All the peacenik stuff going on was a grim reminder that the television we were watching as she went to sleep that night of March 19, 2003 was the "shock and awe" in Iraq. Maybe it urged her on her way...

 

This week was also the last for Jasper Cat. He was finally starting to lose fur in little clumps, and the tumer was interfering with the operation of his shoulders to climb onto the bed... he'd already been unable to climb to his favorite perches on my books and the computer monitor for several months. He was a trooper to the end, though, as cats usually are. He growled about going to the doctor, but was cooperative once there, just as always. He didn't have any spasms due to the injection, and just relaxed finally as he hadn't been able for so long. I'm sleeping alone now for the first time since 1971... it's lonely, and I feel odd not having someone to go home to. Jasper got me through Addie's death, and my crippling.

 

I started a monthly alotment to Muscular Dystrophy Association in memory of Addie. I am still taking dontaions for MDA at the Addie memorial website, http://addielee.aiprojects.net, anything that goes into that account is transfered to MDA the next time I log on to PayPal.

 

For those sailors out there, you can find Addie's gravesite by visiting http://addielee.aiprojects.net/hypertext/venturaroute.html, where you'll find a map showing the spot between Oxnard, CA, and Anacapa Is, where she and her mother were buried at sea.

 

In other news: I finally convinced the doctors to prescribe something for my difficulties "down south" - even though i don't have an enlarged prostrate, my decision to take viagra along with the stool softeners, successfully treeting the CES residual to my spinal cord damage, has resulted in a prescription for Cardura... Cardura is a drug that does the same thing as Viagra, but in smaller doses, including the lowering of blood pressure - with the same concerns about interactions with other drugs. Since the viagra was working, the Cardura just slipped right in with no noticable change from my perspective. --- I still don't know if either one helps with erectile disfunction, since I' still a lonely heart!

 

I'm heading for Newport, OR for Spring Break... it may be difficult to use it as a getaway, but both Joe and I can work it into our schedules. The week I get back, I'll be ushering at Profile Theater, and visiting a shut-in to let him "pick my brain" about something; he hasn't told me about what yet!